謝謝你們 愛我的每個人 ?

Selina的新歌丫
很好听 ..。

听了这首歌后 ， 他妈的才好
我又想起他
爱我的人 ?
不
应该是我爱的人
他妈的emo 哈哈哈哈哈 zzz

最近不知道来了什么鬼运
发现到有三/四个人同时喜欢我
想到都累
很烦啦 ! ! ! !
还要我陪他们说话 聊天 ？
追我的都不是我的CUP OF TEA
我不想再去想或考虑任何人啦
除了他
我谁都不想看 不想理
总有一种感觉
相信有一天 他会找回我的
也许是我笨 想太多
还是死都不想放弃过去

我以前分手后都不是这个样子的
很快的 以下的
就好了起来

难道是他太特别了吗 ？

不 。

是我太爱他了

有没有注意到 ？ 我开始有带着一条链 ？

本来是要送给他的

100 Days Anniversary .

结果 ， 送不出了

这些哦 ？ 是我在他生日之前送给他的

可是买了一个盒子

才发现那个是女孩子用的

放化妆品的 -.-''

在他手里了咯

希望他没有把它给丢了吧 :')

29.10.2011

Went badminton with Amanda , Pei Chin and Ah How this morning at Winner`s Court .
Saw many guys playing badminton there , and it reminds me of him .


Today is the 1st month of our breakups .
That`s why im here to update my blog . lol .


I played real hard today . Trying my best , giving my all even though i`m not good in playing .
Almost cried when i thought i saw his shadow of him playing . .
I love watching him play .
There`s no more chance for me to watch him play already i guess . .

Tears flooded my eyes when i thought of him .
Ah How asked me whether if i`m okay . I replied there`s dust in my eyes .



Hais . Emo Queen loh Tan Ai Shang xD
I wonder how is he . . Doing good ? Doing fine ? Happy ?
I admit lah . I still havent really forget about him yet .
I still like him .
Sometimes i really hate myself for treating him that way .
Making him stress out or what .


I hurt my palm while playing xD
Took 2 pictures of it but my phone lousy , not clear enough .

 

Colorful huh ? Hehe

After having lunch with them , Sarah called me and i joined them :D
Waited for them , Sarah , Christina , Suai and Round to finish their lunch then we head to Kenyalang .
Cincai pick and bought 1 movie to Sarah`s house to watch .
LOL ! Apuuu ! The movie jam jam ah neh !
Reached home around 3pm something .


Tonight i`m going out to Kenyalang AGAIN with Lon them .
Watch meow`s bro`s performance .
Haha . . Nothing more to write le . .

听听情歌 ， 心情好 .

I wonder any of you notice the songs i put in my playlist changes whenever i have different moods ?
I deleted all . I`m putting new songs in my playlist :D
Sentimental ones of course , cause not many people like noisy songs .
It would scare people away hahaha !


Fish Leong is known as "The Queen of  Love Songs" .
What about Hebe ? She should be known as "The Princess of Love Songs" .
I love both singers . Their songs calms me everytime i`m not in a pretty good mood .

田馥甄 - 我真的受伤了 

窗外阴天了
音乐低声了
我的心开始想你了

灯光也暗了 音乐低声了
口中的棉花糖也融化了
窗外阴天了 人是无聊了
我的心开始想你了

电话响起了 你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了 是你变了

灯光熄灭了 音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了 人是不快乐
我的心真的受伤了

电话响起了 你要说话了
还以为你心里对我又想念了
怎么你声音变得冷淡了
是你变了 是你变了

灯光熄灭了 音乐静止了
滴下的眼泪已停不住了
天下起雨了人是不快乐
我的心开始想你了
我的心真的受伤了

And of course !
Stefanie Sun !
She`s my favorite singer .
Some people told me that i look like her . HAHA !
Our rabbit tooth i guess ?  :B

孙燕姿新歌 当冬夜渐暖 

很多事情　不是誰說了就算 即使傷心　結果還是自己擔 多少次失望表示著多少次期盼 事實證明　幸福很難 我們之間　不是誰說了就算 拉扯的愛　徒增結局的難堪 一百次相愛只要有一次的絢爛 下一次　會更勇敢 當冬夜漸暖　當大海也不再那麼藍 當月色的純白變得陰暗 那只是代表快樂不再那麼簡單 當冬夜漸暖　當夏夜的樹上不再有蟬 當回憶老去的痕跡斑斑 那只是因為悲傷從來　都不會有答案 當冬夜漸暖　當青春也都煙消雲散 當美麗的故事都有遺憾 那只是習慣把愛當作喜歡 重要的是　我們如何愛過那一段 

 

It`s quite a new song actually . The song is released in this beginning of year , 2011 , if i`m not mistaken .

This is my favorite song of all <3 :]

She rested for 4 years , and now she`s back . 

A little too late for me to write this but still i want to continue xD

Here`s the track listing of the newest album of hers .

1. 世說心語 (A Voice Within)
2. 追 (The Chase)
3. 當冬夜漸暖(Time and Tide)
4. 時光小偷 (Thief of Time)
5. 空口言 (Sky)
6. 明天的記憶 (Tomorrow's Memory)
7. 180度 (180 Degrees)
8. 快瘋了 (Crazy)
9. 愚人的國度 (Fool's Kingdom)
10. 是時候 (It's Time)

還是要幸福

So yeah , i like this song .
And i`ve found an english version of this song LOL !
Sang by some fan of HEBE .
Her singing is err . . . but  yeah the lyrics are good .

"The story is about two people who have really obvious connections towards each other but the guy fails to take any further action to attain a real relationship. So the girl decides to get over him and say goodbye to this lame guy who's afraid of making a first move. However, the girl still takes this situation as a kind of eternity, just not in the form of love and relationship."





You're the only reason why, I keep my cellphone on next to me
Hoping you would message me, or at least let me know you're doing fine
One line from you makes me high, feels like I'm living in a fantasy
But how come you will never take, one more step forward towards me

Is this eternity? I seem to be the only one trying
Are you gonna let me wait forever? Don't break my heart
Just let me go

Is this eternity? Have you ever tried meeting me halfway?
Even though you promised that you will do, my heart's aching
I'm done with this, let us be history

I know the chemistry's still here, but you just won't do anything further
'I love you' is what you say, well do you really mean the words you said?

Is this eternity? I seem to be the only one trying
Are you gonna let me wait forever? Don't break my heart
Just let me go

Is this eternity? Have you ever tried meeting me halfway?
Even though you promised that you will do, my heart's aching
I'm done with this, let us be history

Is this eternity? I seem to be the only one trying
Are you gonna let me wait forever? Don't break my heart
Just let me go

If we're eternity, I would be thankful for the love we both share
But since you just chose to conceal our hearts, til forever
I guess, it's one, kind of eternity
Still kind of, eternity


CHINESE version , Original lyric .


不確定就別親吻 感情很容易毀了一個人
一個人若不夠狠 愛淡了不離不棄多殘忍

你留下來的垃圾 我一天一天總會丟完的
我甚至真心真意的祝福 永恆在你的身上先發生
你還是要幸福 你千萬不要再招惹別人哭
所有錯誤從我這裏落幕 別跟著我 銘心 刻骨
你還是要幸福 我才能確定我還得很清楚
確定自己再也不會佔據 你的篇幅
明天 開始 這一切都結束

還我鑰匙的備份 我覺得再見可以很單純
我甚至真心真意的祝福 永恆在你的身上先發生
你還是要幸福 你千萬不要再招惹別人哭
所有錯誤從我這裏落幕 別跟著我 銘心 刻骨
你還是要幸福 我才能確定我還得很清楚
確定自己再也不會佔據 你的篇幅
明天 開始 這一切都結束
你還是要幸福 你千萬不要再招惹別人哭
所有錯誤從我這裏落幕 別跟著我 銘心 刻骨
你如果很幸福 半夜的簡訊我就無需回覆
因為你的悲喜已經有了 容身之處 我也 能有 最純粹的孤獨
最孤獨的孤獨

 

I felt kinda emo when i first hear this song LOL ! 

Boo !

Cant really think of a title haha !
Hmm . I`ve been quite lazy lately , doesnt want to on pc to blog or what .
Just doing my old stuff everyday except for texting anyone now .


How is everybody ?
Good ?
Busy for assignments and exams huh ?
I want that life .
I miss those life .
High school ? No . Bad memories .


I have this dream .
I dream about Caroline . We talked and laughed together like last time .
I miss her actually .
I miss everyone .
Just that i didnt mention them in front of people anymore .


My life is good .
I`ve made badminton my favorite sports .
Thanks to him of course , toothpaste .
Nah ! Not toothpaste anymore .


Ohh this sucks .
Everytime when i wanted to write something here , i would think of him .
I`ll just leave blog for awhile .
Going to write something interesting once i come back :]

New chapter .

Hi Bloggy !


After some time being alone away from any social things i can get to , trying to understand myself well .
Finally i know what i really want in my life in all these times .
I`ll stick to it till the end .

You see guys ? I insists myself to go somewhere very distant , starting a new life somewhere out there alone by myself . Trying new things new stuff , learning new knowledges , knowing and meeting new friends .
To me , it`ll might be the best choice and also a chance for me to change and start over everything again .
For trying to erase those past i`ve get caught up in a mess >> high school .
I know , i understand by sometimes , things do not work out as we wish for , i`m not sure whether where my path will lead me but i`m doing my best this time , looking forward for all those challenging things that might be happening in front of me soon or later .
I`m not hiding and trying to "erase" those painful past i had .
I`ll use them as my guidance and i`ll learn from them .


I met a woman , and she inspired me a lot 
The first time i saw her , i felt something special in her .
I know she had gone through many bad times , which makes her becoming a strong independent woman now .

"As a woman , we must show people that we are strong enough to face the challenges , and not a weakling in front of people ."
Because of her , i started climbing up again .

Most women get teased a lot , i wont wanna be like them .
Head forward , no matter what your future lies , trust yourself . Walk on , even if you`re alone .
Go go Ai Shang ! Gooo ! !


Sighs , talking about past ? Stupid face of his pops up in my mind again .
Saw him in my facebook`s homepage .
Picture of him and his friends together .
"Can i delete you from my past ?" , i asked myself .
No . I will not . And i`ll never will .
I`ll just let it be . Cause it`s some good memories i had before in teenage life .
I`m happy and glad to see him having fun not being troubled by love relationship cause of Ai Shang .
Letting go off him slowly now .
Still , i need more time .
Trying to focus on my work and yes , study soon , probably next year .
Being emotionless to me , i did not blame him anymore .
He`s just trying to make me hurt less .


Well , lil Tarzan is growing up , so do i .
The next time he see me again , i`ll make sure i`ll be completely different from the first time he saw me .
And also , not going to apologize to anyone anymore .
Stupid enough of me to keep apologizing to somebody who doesn`t even think and care .
SHADDUP AI SHANG ! 
You`re writing too much about him .


"There`s a story behind every person , there`s a reason why they`re the way they are . They aren`t just like that because they want to . Something in the past created them , and sometimes it`s impossible to fix them ."



Times up baby ! Life goes on .
Why bother so much ?
Sad , happy , angry , whatever moods you`re in , you still have to go on with this pathetic life .
Opps , did i mentioned about pathetic ? Nah uh .
I`m going to make my life interesting and fun !
Just release the tension and put everything down !
MOVE IT SOLDIER ! MOVE IT ! MOVE IT !
(Oh wait ? Madagascar ? Move it ? ) :b

Let`s enjoy our lives as they are now
Dry your eyes , show me a smile ,
and let`s go !
 

Don't worry ! It will be OK somehow

If you flail about , nothing will begin

But , just thinking about it is useless

I wont tell you to "Do your best"
No one will think you`ve fallen behind

I wont tell you to "Do your best"
because you already are .

I love myself .

I love Tan Ai Shang :3

I`m dead , but am alive again .

Forget about the old post i posted in my blog .


It`s been 1 week+ already since the both of us broke up .
I texted him that , i can finally let go of him but still i get no reply from him .
It`s okay , i know the results already even if i didn`t text him .
He`s free now .
So do i .


I`ve been enjoying life in that 1 week time there with my sister and friends at Kedah , Langkawi , KL .
Trying not to think back those times with him .
3 months only mah .
I`ve been through 7 failed relationships including this .
All 3 months+ or less than 3 months also got .
So easy to let go lah .
Just forget about it .
He`s not even worth for me to think .


Just like what my title says , "i`m dead , but am alive again" .
From now onwards , i`ll try to spend more time with myself more than other people .
I haven`t been trying to understand myself well .
Sometimes relationships may gone wrong because of self attitude .
I`ve been over-protective and controlling , wanting to know what he is doing too much till i scare him away .
I`m scared and not ready to be in relationship .
And as for him ? He shouldn`t chase girls or be in relationships cause his parents doesn`t allow him to do so .
Whatever lah .


I`m letting go of him already .
I`ll start a new single life .
Going to work soon . Still haven`t found any damn jobs though .
Headache cause of it .
Hehe i`m fine now . As long i didn`t think of him :]

Why Dont You Call Me Yet ?

Going into town on a cold and busy day
With a brand new jacket on, you and ran and did not come home to me
And I don't know where you said you went off to
I don't know where to begin, I have no hope of finding you

"You should know that I really do love you"
That's what you said, that's what you said
I want to believe you, but it's hard to do
Will I find relief if I choose not to believe?

I want to see you, don't you want to see me?
You know that I've been waiting all this time just for your call
I'm afraid you won't stop to remember me
That's why I cannot bring myself to send the call

Then you came around and you stood in front of me
Said "I'm sorry that I'm late, I'm sorry that I made you have to wait."
But you know that I won't forgive this refrain
'Cause I know how this thing goes, I know that you will be late again

You know that I've been waiting all this time just for your call
If you no longer have feelings left for me
I wish you'd tell me why if you recall

But maybe
Its 'cause I don't know how to speak my mind?
Or because I'm too restless and loud?
Or maybe my language is too unrefined?
I get jealous and too damn proud

I don't act maturely enough
I know that I'm not tall enough
Maybe my body's not sexy enough?
Or maybe my hair color's not good enough?
Oh I see, it's 'cause of my low self esteem?
Please... whatever it is... I'll change, I promise!

I want to see you, don't you want to see me?
You know that I've been waiting all this time just for your call
I'm afraid you won't stop to remember me
That's why I cannot bring myself to send the call