回來這幾天

今天是我回來的第9天了。
等待著新年的來臨，希望接下來的日子會比較好過
最近生病了。果然每一年的新年前，中或后我都會生一場大病。
昨晚老姐帶我去喝苦茶
靠！真的夠苦得咯！
喝了剩下一點全給老媽喝 XD
今天身體真的有變比較好

朋友找我出，我都很懶惰理。
不知道為什麼回來後的心情特別差
都會選擇跟我比較喜歡的出

最近都煩畢業后要做什麽
看到學長學姐們都煩惱做什麽工
我想到自己都怕

希望能夠待在台灣不回來
但是家人呢？
算命說老媽到70多歲就走了
我很害怕失去她
還是在古晉待？

在這裡打工沒前途的。
怎麼辦。。。

討厭！！該死的鼻子。。。。。。難呼吸

唉！繼續玩遊戲機吧。。想這麼多也沒用

愛久見人心

The fear really hits you. That's what you feel first. And then it's the anger and frustration. Part of the problem is how little we understand about the ultimate betrayal of the body when it rebels against itself.
Charles Bronson

Love this quote . It actually speaks out what i have gone through and how i felt .
Its been a few years time since the betrayal of hers started .
After my form5 , SPM .
Till now , i couldnt manage to forget about it . How it hurts to know the truth when your very best friend badmouthed about you to your other best girl friends who used to stick together a lot . And your primary school friend actually believed in what she said .
Get mad at me for not knowing the truth .
Scolded me poop for not knowing how hurt i can be .

Not just once , but twice .
Even here in Taiwan .

Am mad cause 1 of the girl worked with my friends , in the same shop , and they became closer .
Out together , work together all those .
And they began to left me out .

I bought a present for my friend , a guy who always pick me up to yamcha .
I guess , after giving him the present , I wont be joining them in their new groups of friends so often anymore .
Will be quitting soon ? I dont wanna mess around with that girl and her friends .
Its killing me to see them being so nice altogether .
Fuck it .


Posted a status in fb , many people commented , cheering me up .
Thanks LOL !
Facebook really (Y)
I`m feeling much more better .
Pray to lord , hoping a better day would come .
New groups of nice besties i will have .
No betrayal , no lies , no badmouth .
Just loyalty and trust .

Hope for the best .

Woots <3